Saturday, March 31, 2007

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You're the only love I'll need

In my life You're all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me

When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You, I need You

Imagine me without
YouI'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day, I'd be afraid
Without You there to see me through

Imagine me without You
Lord, You know it's just impossible
Because of You, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without You

When You caught me I was falling
You're love lifted me back on my feet
It was like You heard me calling
And You rush to set me free

When I found You I was blessed
And I will never leave You, I need You

I can't imagine me without You

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
11:55 PM

mmms. wokeup damn late larhhs. hahahas. at bout 12.30 then started to get ready& took bus to lovells house. actually supposed to go orchard but instead we get off the bus and took cabby to bugis instead cos i wanna meet dear there. lol. saw wei how larhhs. hahahas. then saw another weihao &. ah du. doing uzumaki's mascot. &. saw yixin. hahahas. many many people larhhs. alicia too ! lol. met dear. he argued with jia an korkor. was sad to see them both like that. after dear went home. hughug him & let him go. hahahas. its been days since i last hughug him. hahas. xing fu. went back to look for lovell they all. &. we planned to go to concourse for match of pool. and yeahhs. me with james. lovell with yingchuan. won some of the matches larhhs. hahahas. was damn low during that time. wanted to meet wei how &. ask him to accompany me. but nevermind. since he got probation. mmms. talking with wei how on the phone now. so i think i will blog later (:

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
11:32 PM

mmmms. went out to meet james downstairs my house at around 7pm . thenn walk walk walk to parkwayparade watsons to find lovell & . yingchuan. they must be very bored larhhs. hahahas. gai gai until watsons. lol. same same. dear's messages were plain &. cold ! gosh lovell and companies didnt know where to go larhhs. so we had bubbletea andd played with the lift from 1st floor to 13th. then up and downs. hahahas. lame ass. update the picture tmr ba (: next we took bus31 to toapayohh. we all were sleeping in the bus larhhs. hahahas. i tried not to message dear. i dunnoh why also. hah ! then went to the entertainment centre and they had nothing there and we just walk walk walk. until we decided to buy bread and munchh munchh on bus8. to lovells house. then watched moovee there. hahas. in the end i slept there larhhs. james also slept there. andd when hes awake. he said. NICE SHOW. lol. okokays. end (:

messaged him about alot of stuffs.
he finally replied me
& told me he has something to tell.
i was afraid larhhs. hahahas. i also dunnoh why like that.
mmms. update tmr ba.

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
1:16 AM

Friday, March 30, 2007

what a pathetic friday larhhs. (:
messages were plain again.
even how hard i tried. it still remain the same.
he no longer message me when hes awake.
i dunnoh what hes doing right at the moment.
hints were given. but its still the same.
i really couldnt afford to lose him *

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
3:12 PM

09 march 2007
i notice the warmth of his hands
i am actually in love right now
&. that person
i realised how deep in love i am with him.
every little thing of us.
is very precious to me
i dont wanna lose you forever.

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
2:18 PM

Thursday, March 29, 2007

mmmms. suddenly feel like blogging.
its already 5 more minutes to midnight.
yeahhs andd i am still here blogging.
just felt that me and dear relationship isnt that stable
as i always thought so. i dunnoh why.
i just cant guess whats thinking on his mind right now.
argghhs. this feeling is just so sucky.
i am just all mixed up larhhs. feel like dying. or rather just
take a break from everything else. & . only focus on him*
just got a fucking feeling that its my fault that
we didnt hadd the time to meetup.
is like i didnt see him since sunday.
& our date on saturday is so so freaking short.
i just miss him alot larhhs. but its like.
monday i wasnt supposed to go out at all.
becos i am resting at home.
my mum wont let me out since i didnt go school.
gosh. if only i wasnt controlled at all. argghhs.
tuesday. fucking power learning programme
made me lost another free day of the whole damn week.
wednesday. artclub &. remedials. yeah yeah.
i always knew that wednesdays are always
one whole day at school.
thursday. chemistry test. argghs.
made me lost my free time with dear again.
and lastly friday. hais dear had to work.
andd yeah. i was somehow happy.
but its another fucking lonely friday larhhs.
mmms. hadd plans for tmr. becos dear working at bugis.
& i date lovell they all out for a midnight show.
and see if i get to see dear for just one freaking minute i also happy.
but but. arghhs.
mummy dont allow me to go out during midnight larhhs.
so freaking lame ass right.
say what law under 17 years old cannot go out after 11pm.
rubbish larhhs okays. will i be so suay. arghhs.
please dont controll me larhhs. arghhs. its only midnight.
just for even one minute to see him for once i also will feel xing fu.
& really felt sorry to dear larhhs. he very teng wo.
say want fetch me to school tmr just to meet me.
andd meet me at bedok interchange.
but how am i gonna explain to daddy.
hes going bonkers if i tell him to fetch me to interchange.
really bo bian larhhs. arghhs. dear was really so so sweet.
arghhhs. regretedd. mmmms.
this few days i hadd been thinking whats hes doing.
these and that. i also dunnoh. sometimes really hoping
that dear would msg me larhs but in the end.
yupps. no need to say larhhs. hais.
sometimes his message so so sweet.
sometimes his message so so plain.
this feeling is sucky too alright. its like.
i dunnoh whats hes thinking larhhs. how pathetic can i be.
so so useless. i dont even know whats my boy thinking..
yeahs. i really cant figure out anything now.
my mind just need to take a break from this whole damn thing .

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
11:50 PM

daddy fetch me to school so early this morning lurhhs. hahahas. although timing only early by afew minutes. but i rather just reach school on the dot larhhs. hadd art. andd i decided to change my theme to trends. rather than damage. hahahas. maybe trends suit me better. dear wokeup so so early today. hahahas. was happy larhhs. cos he seldom wakes up so early. missing him like hell. cant able to meet him tomorrow. cos hes working. (: kambatehh . hmms. chinese lesson pissed me off. lol. ben and aaron larhhs. and that stopid green goblin teacher. i was teaching aaron principles of accounts. & &. he ask me tonnes of stoopid question.

DREY : what you know about POA .
AARON : from the basics to trial balance. i dont know a single thing.
DREY : goshh what are you doing in klass.
AARON : just teach.

*blah blah blah until it comes to cash at bank.*

AARON : why cash must be at bank
DREY : you cant be carrying 80,000 around with you. thats why you put it in the bank.
AARON : can put inside briefcase what.

laughh my ass out okays. stoopid question larhhs. then ben keep on laughing. hahahas. what cash at briefcase. lol. silly him. lessons ended . so we headed for chemistry test. (:
mmms. rather difficult larhhs. i also anyhow do. hahahas. wait for the results ba. went to techview to eat with aaron andd jin with ben. then went straight home. okokays. off to bugis kaikai. (: SMILES

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
6:21 PM

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

when back to school again. hahahas. yeahhs. but was freaking sick in the morning larhhs. last night woke up at 1am. 3am. just to cough. hhahas. silly me. & . i dunnoh wadd freaking hell got into me larhhs. i kept on tearing when i cough lurhhs. hahahas. make until my eyes this morning like cry before like that. very xinku larhhs. dear was drunk last night again. hahahas. went back to just like how we were before. keep on sending me sweet messages. hes kyute when hes drunk larhhs. hahahas. hes kyute in everyway indeed. hahahas. XD. skipped art club today. as i feeling terrible. felt sorry to misstanchengying. i was sleeping at her lesson today larhhs. for the whole 1 and half hours. then moreover i didnt attend art club for so long larhhs. arghhs. hope my coughing will end now. bleahhs. hahahas. mmms. my mood now rather confused. i dunnoh wads dear doing. really damn freaking confused larhhs. hes message to me this morning was so so bland and yet his testimonial to me in friendster is .aiyahh donnoh how to say. anyways. i always have this mixed feelings larhhs. maybe becos of mummy & him ? i dunnoh. (:

raxak andd the big big pink shades

yeah yeah thats lovell & melvin being sent out of class again lurhs. hahahas. stoopid lovell showing off his n73 to me in klass. arghhs. i will be changing next month larhhs. hahahas.

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
4:43 PM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

went back to school for lessons again. &. my cough didnt seems to get better lurhs. hahahas. stoopid benjamin larhs. i cough abit only. askk me dont die. choy. touchh wood youu know. hahahas. was damn sleepy today lurhhs. dunnoh why. hahahas. nodding my head on the table.
mmms. the pastoral care proggramme ? me and aaron purposely went in late larhhs. hahahas. the teacher didnt say anything. so we continue with the boring lessons. then stoopid msADLIN larhhs. call aarons handphone. argghs. so she asked us stay back &. talked to us. LOL

ADLIN : why were you two late
DREY : eat until forget the time
AARON : yahhs. eat until forget the time
ADLIN : how come others can come on time. why both of you cant
AARON : james they all also late. we only late for 20minutes.
ADLIN :no. i was in classroom until 2.55 means both of you only reached at between 2.55 to 3oclock. late for more than 20minutes.

*and it went on *

ADLIN : both of you need to stay back for makeup lessons. on 24thapril.
AARON : the method dont even worked on us. so go there also waste our time.
ADLIN : if you were late for school. you will also have to pay back the time.
AARON : i never late for school before ( bullshit )
ADLIN : i said ''if''
AARON : first time late they will let us off. so this one also my first time .so you should let us off.
ADLIN : no. first time you will be counselled by the teacher
DREY : now you couselling us ma. so dont need go makeup lesson

okokays. up to here. and i forgotten all already. and the conclusion would be. ADLIN would tell the person incharge lah and see if they want us to go makeup lessons anorts. hahahas. stoopid right. their method simply sucks larhs. and so childish so naive. hahahas.

i miss DARYLkng badly

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
9:33 PM

Monday, March 26, 2007

MTV from S.H.E very touching music video indeed lurhs. hahahas. guess we cant find any guy just like him in the video who will wait for the girl even until they both turned old lurhhs. hahahas. EXTINCT already okays. hahahas

JAY CHOU's ( da tou tie )

this song is about nan quan mama &. reporters ba.jay's singing. hahahas yeahs. you cant find this song in any of his albums.

another sad sad music video. (:hmms. wondering if i were in hebe's situation ?!

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
5:35 PM

very sick today. &. didnt go schooling again lurhhs. mummy accompanied me to the doctor. then she went for work. stoopid dear. fevering. &. still running about in the midnight. hahahas. but nevermind. i like it. hahahas (: seriously cant stand it lurhs. the coughing. making me unable to produce any voice.&. making me awake in the midnight. argghhs. simply cant stand it lurhs. i want go school ! missing out alot of fun larhs. hahahas. with ben ? hahahas.

medicine sucks to the core

by right is only 1day. but the nurse save my trouble of going down to the clinic to collect another day MC like the last time. she wrote me 2days instead.just for incase. (:

was freaking bored okays. hahahas. thanks for dehong. chatting with me.

i changed my friendster background. friends. must go take a look &. leave me testimonial okays. http://www.friendster.com/dreyandloves

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
10:58 AM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

sick couples * audrey andd daryl.

hahahas. drey is coughing . daryl is fevering.

arghhs. GET WELL SOON.

updatedd by ( audrey )

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
11:35 PM

hmms. talked to jiaan korkor through msn last night lurhhs. while dear is sleeping. talked about many things and it appeared that .dear seems to be very concern about how people see us when we are together. he smoke less infront of me. he doesnt creates trouble when iam around. and many more lurhhs. dunnoh. kinda complicated feelings i had after hearing what jiaan korkor said. hahahas. he asked me. ( what was the first impression daryl gave you that made you like him. ) andd my answer was still the same. (do i need a reason to love someone ) hmms. ahahahs. many more questions jiaan asked lurhs. hahahas. lazy to type out. aniweas i also cant remember anymore. hahahas. what a poor memory i've got. lynn called me this morning. asked me to work. but its like cheap labour lah. andd you ask me work on saturdays and sunday without any increase in pay. hahahas. hey i am being realistic okays. so i rejected. hahahas. bathe and when off to hougang. dear just wokeup when i just reach. hadd a small nap at the void deck. andd went up to dear's house. hahahas. took pictures with dear and jiaan. andd well. i dont look nice lurhs. dunnoh. i am having a bad hair day today i guess. lol. when straight to tampines mall. then see dear play arcade. hahahas. he so power lurhhs. one coin can last for so long. ahahahas. hmms. then i went to eunos to meet mummy &. daddy. and dear &. jiaan went to pasir ris for chalet. hmmms. hes not going home today lurhs. miss him to bits and pieces.

hahahas. i looked freaking weird lurhhs. dear's red hair appeared as brown in photos. 240307

this was yesterday's photo at upper serangoon shopping centre (: 230307

me and jiaan korkor at dear's house. (: 240307

audrey &.her self obsession (: 240307

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
1:33 AM

Friday, March 23, 2007

missAMYNG spoilt my weekend okays. hate her to bits and pieces. MRSCHEAH larhhs. go and complain wadd blah blah. stoopidd idiot. make me cannot leave book under table. but you think i care. hahahas. she wont so bo liao call parents one by one and collect books home meh. hahaha. BENJAMIN IS A STOOPID IDIOT -hahahas. i lost onebuck to him lurhs. becos of that bet. arghhs. then keep on overr that kpkb hahahas. but anyways hadd fun dozing off with him in class today. -SMILES (: hmms. when home straight to change and dressup. askk daddy fetchh me to upper serangoon meet daryl. he dont want. hahahas. no larhs. actually beocs hes busy. so i will have to find my way there myself. andd guess wadd 76 by passed there. hahahas. LUCKY ME. miss dear alot nahhs, didnt seen him for the past 3days. many things happened. and was really worried. missing dear's hugs too. hmms. taizi arggs today not guai. go bang his hands into the glass thingy. and blood slashing and dripping lurhhs. all of us scream like nobody's business .very poor thing you know.

HOPE HE GET WELL SOON

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
11:49 PM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

went back to school lessons today (:

hmms. hidayah message me damn early lurhs. hahahas. just nice. its time for me to wakeup get ready for school andd off in daddy's car. msadlin changed my seat. wahahas. me sitting at the far end with benjamin lurhs. hahahas. god must be blessing me. ben keeps me awake. rather than sitting with muzakir. i need to beg him to talk to me lurhs. hahahas.

dunnoh why. was rather slack in class today. probably because of the sitting arrangement which made me feel strange .hahahas. chinese teacher was rather irritating lurhs. hahaha. he is sort of a paranoid guy. gets suspicious over a little bit of things lurhs. hmms. wondering if i should go vivo for moovees with james they all. hahahas. i seriously dunnoh lurhs. have no idea. but anyways. felt sorry towards them nahh. cos everytime jio me out i everytime like just entertain them. hahaha. tell them say i will give them the answer tonight or wad. but in the end also will forget all about it. SORRY GUYS. hmms . dear wokeup at about 12pm. was so so gladd to received his message. after not meeting him for like 3days 72 hours 4320 minutes 259200 seconds. hahahas. really missed him to bits and pieces. was also kinda relieved and finally felt the sense of security dear is giving me ever since i received that message last night (: SMILES .cant wait for the weekend to come lurhs. andd i swear i will rush down to hougang .

yeah yeah its my ruler and ben's calculator.

its lovell standing outside of classroom lurhs.HAHAHAS

MY SELF OBSESSION CORNER

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
3:53 PM

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

was rather bored at home again today. because didnt go school lurhhs. hahaha. but was seriously sick okay.. then about 3plus. aaron came. do homework with me. but in the end. he didnt do anything. but i only finish my compo lurhs. duhhs. aaron helped me write the body of it. hahahas. cos i simply have no idea of how to write it. THANKS BESTBESTFRIEND .

thanks BESTBESTFRIEND for sharing with me yourr mos burger (:

AARON BESTBESTFRIEND

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
8:58 PM

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

DIDNT GO SCHOOL TODAY

was really sick. slept very early yesterday. becos drink the medicine jiu sleepy ler. hahahas. wokeup at about 10am. stoopid aaron message me. hahahas. then meddle with my friendster until i giveup. hahahas. seriously dunnoh how to meddle with friendster's layout. (:

was doing compo . argghs

this bottle cost me 20bucks

the most sickening part everr okays. she was hesitating to write the number of days i should go on MC lurhs. then in the end. she wrote ONE. arghhs

what a nice combination. SWEETS AND MILK

i think i still prefer the night (:

talking with aaron through the mic (:

i seriously habb no idea why i like to tilt my headd. hahahas

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
5:40 PM

好眼泪坏眼泪

我曾认真深爱著一个人他给我幸福的可能
我等我问未来何时发生他只是给我一个吻
快乐我哭是因为你的手曾答应带我向前走
难过我哭是因为我的手找不到你说的以后
好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只不过在你不再爱我了以后剩坏的眼泪慢慢流
快乐我哭是因为我付出得到你温柔的答覆
难过我哭是因为我任性你的心永远留不住
好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望在我不再想你了之后有好的眼泪慢慢流
好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望在我不再想你了之后有好的眼泪慢慢流

有好的笑容陪著我

ITS REALLY MEANINGFUL

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
5:28 PM

Monday, March 19, 2007

THANKS ALOT ; STRANGER .

thanks alot for buying for me this gokusen series one.

this might cost youu a bomb.

muchh appreciatedd (:

gummy **hhahaass.

razak offered me his veryy last gummy

in klass todayy. hhahaas. and it was nice.

so i went to buy the big big pack one. hahahas

dont think so iam going school tmr.

COUGH COUGHS *

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
9:28 PM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

many things happened last night .
dearr asked me if kel said anything to me the other day.
i said no at first. and yupps. i was lying.
i told dear. even if he said. so what. and yeahhs.
i just cant bring myself to lie to him again.
i told him the truth. about what kel said.
and things went terribly wrong. fight started.
i am indeed worrying. very worried indeed.
i need him by my side. i love him.
to many people. they will think .
( aww. you are such a despo. youu dont even know him well. )
and guess what. i dont give a damn.
i love him and its final. no matter what other people says.
nomatter how many people objected. i will still love him.

when to find him immediately after i bath.
waited at hougang mall for him.
went to library and read book. hahass.
then we walked from mall to his house.
yeahhs. it was HOT. met taizi and nana near the POSB.
then crossed the road for a meal.
hahahass. walked to jiaan house.
wait for him to bring food to his mummy at the park.
parted with taizi and nana.
so went with dear and jiaan to dear's house.
his mummy and friends were at home. hahahas.
then went down to meet ahhuang ? ahahass dunnoh how spell his name.
sat with dear at the playground. mosquitos come bugging me.
and looks like i am gonna have a dengue fever. c
os the mosquito has stripes on its legs.
BLESS ME LORD. hahahas. dearr send me to busstop. and it all ended. (:

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
9:54 PM

Friday, March 16, 2007

today rather boring norhhs. hahahass.

didnt meet up with daryl dearr today.

instead, went out with mummy and aunty and biaojie.

to ang mo kio hub. there. veryy veryy sian. nothing at all.

AND AND AND i came home to eat chinese medicine.

about forty plus pills to swallow. hahahasss.

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
9:16 PM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

spend my day at jia an house with daryl dear and jia an
was tired argghs manage to serve the internet there.
while daryl dear is sleeping. (:
when to lorong ah soo after that.
eat chicken chop with daryl dear. then he send me to
bus stop. something just keep bothering me.
am i too sensitive or what. hahahasss. me myself also
dont know. but i just cant afford to lose him.

pak ka with jia an korkor hahahasss
tmrrs breakfast. hope daryl dearr would be happy.

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
12:30 AM

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

daryl dear messaged me at 530am lurhhs.
tell me he going drink with his friend at the opposite block.
hais. hahahass. budden hes a good boy last night
so early reach home. thanks to JIA AN.
hahahsss. yesterday was really happy lurhhs.
when daryl dear.taizi.jia an. pei me take 87 home.
hahaharrss. hmmsss. went home. mummy confront me
ask me not to mix with him. i told her. i loved him alot.
she ask what are his attractions. i told her i dunnoh.
love is not by finding the perfect person
but ; to see an imperfect person perfectly.
daryl dear wakeup lerr. hahahsss buhhbyes.
might come blog tonight (:
thanks mummy and nelson korkor.
thanks alot.
today audrey ishh a pig. hahahasss. she sleep very long
hmmms.. daryl dearr go until tampines watch movee.
so far norhhs. hahahasss. miss him lots (:

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
11:35 AM

Monday, March 12, 2007

hmmmss.
yesterday daryl was out in china town with
jia an and his stead. hahaharrs
miss him to bits and pieces.
waited for him till 315 am
last night lurhhs.
hahahasss. although very tired but very xing fu.
went to macdonalds this morning to eat with
lovell valerie ian kaisheng and james.
i ended up sleeping instead of eating
physics was sian. kenna scolded from being late.
hahahass. its on purpose lurhhs.
went down to hougang green to find daryl
he is so so sick. my heart pain pain. hahahass
LOVE HIM 090307

MY PRESENCE ; XIAODREY
9:38 PM